A Story Of Life

A Story Of Life

Not Mine, But Someone's

    

    She could never allow herself to feel tied down again. They all left her, cheated, and abused her heart. It was the boys she could not love that loved her most, while she loved the ones most who could not love her. She cries, and cries. Soon she realizes, it’s not just relationships that she can no longer commit to, but also sports, school, friends. She no longer can commit; she is drowning in fear. How will she ever feel the love? After all, if there’s anything that everyone needs it is to feel like there’s someone in the universe that can love them. She felt alone, she felt as if something was wrong with her. But what? What did she ever do to drive everyone away? She was goofy, and passionate, adventurous, and daring. She had no fears except for love, her biggest dream. She was seventeen then.

   She’s twenty-six now with two kids, and a husband. The loneliness was cured. She "got over” her commitment issues at twenty when a sweet college boy showed her what appreciation meant. She had never felt as precious as a flower until he touched her. He loved her and she loved his love. She stared at her baby girl, back came that old fear. She felt her seventeen year old heartbreaks like they were fresh. She’s scared for her daughter's future, and worried that she will have the same misfortunes. The woman stared at her son now, and promised to commit to making him the best man she could. He wouldn’t objectify women, he wouldn’t lie or cheat. Back at her daughter she looked and promised to commit to teaching self love, and independence.

    Eighteen years pass and she is forty-two now. Still happily in love with her college boys love. Her daughter is twenty and wants to bring her boyfriend home for Christmas. Throughout the daughter’s teen years her mother would check every guy out that little Suzie liked. She always called it from the get-go when they were no good, which was every time thus far. Suzie hated feeling as if her mom was trying to sabotage who she could or could not be with. Mom liked the boy at christmas. “That’s new,” Suzie thought.